Denial

Have you ever done something that you know you shouldn’t but just can’t help yourself. Maybe it’s a guilty pleasure like watching something that’s a little “mature” or reading something that is vulgar. Maybe it’s eating something when a health condition says it’s probably wise to avoid those types of foods.

How do you feel after you’ve done those things? Happy? Satisfied? Maybe disappointed in yourself?

While indulging in those “guilty pleasures” might feel good in the moment they can be detrimental in the long run-to your physical and/or mental health.

I have been fairly candid about my mental health and what causes some of my anxiety and depression. I have gone to therapy and take medication for my problems. I do exercises that help me get through the day when I’m stressed and overwhelmed. I have learned to break down boundaries and build up healthy ones. I have been doing daily devotionals and spending more time with God-I’ve been consistent for over 100 days but something is still feeling off.

“Then the Lord replied: “Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.”

Habakkuk‬ ‭2:2-3‬

I decided to give up Instagram. Gasp! The horror! I gave up one measly social media site that means nothing to do many people. Instagram can be used for so much good and education and connecting but it can also be used for comparison, bragging, immorality, and the list goes on. The fact of the matter is that Instagram was hurting my mental health. I’ve been free of that branch of social media for several weeks now and my mood has changed 10,000%. Okay, maybe not that much but there has been an improvement and I LOVE it-so much so that I deleted the Facebook app off of my phone to test that too. I still log in through my web browser but it’s work and I get frustrated by how long it takes. I log on only to post to some groups that I am in charge of. My mood has changed significantly within the past week and I’m considering logging off of social media for good.

Some of you couldn’t care less about social media and it doesn’t effect you at all and that is great. Others of you know exactly what I am talking about and maybe you’re considering making changes in your social media lives as well. Good for you!

I’ve been in denial that social media is at the root of my mental health problems. I’m not saying that by deleting said programs will cure me but it certainly doesn’t hurt. I love feeling connected but I now have more of a desire to be physically connected with my family. I want to be content with my current life and not feel drawn to know what others are doing.

“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”

James‬ ‭1:27‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I feel that God is leading me to continue this blog so I will do that. If you want to keep up with it please subscribe through email! Deleting Facebook is something that I feel needs to be done for myself. For those of you wondering how you will keep up with my kids and their cuteness-you know my number, my email, where we live. You will survive not getting updates every day.

Think about what you can detox out of your life to give you more happiness. What are you giving control to?