It seems like it’s been a while since I’ve written anything. God hasn’t really placed anything on my heart to talk about. We have been adhering (for the most part) to our stay at home order. That has been hard for me-to stay put and not go anywhere. I’m having to keep a nearly four year old and a full blown toddler entertained at home. By myself. It’s been a challenge.
Thankfully the weather is getting nicer. We are able to get outside more. Both boys love to be outside. Although one is very independent and does his own thing while the other needs to be given direction and wants an audience. I’ve been pulled in opposite directions by these sweet boys and it’s been draining.
I want to give a shout out to all the single parents. You guys have a hard job. I can’t imagine going through this pandemic time without a spouse. I admire your strength and your ability to move forward. Luke is gone at least eleven hours a day for his job and then comes home and farms. While I in no way compare myself to a single parent I am alone and without adult companionship for a good portion of my day. It. Is. Hard.
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12 NIV
During this “alone” time I’ve been forced to really look inside myself and work on some things that I haven’t wanted to approach. I feel myself growing and maturing. I’ve had to lean on God more. Really, it’s been a breath of fresh air.
I have had to let go of some relationships. That’s been difficult but it is what’s best for my mental health. I’ve also been able to cultivate new friendships-though it’s just been in a digital sense as of now-I know those relationships are growing.
God has shown me how I have been codependent with certain people and relationships. I needed to let that go and be codependent with Him. There has genuinely been a weight lifted from my heart because of this. It’s hard to let go sometimes but it’s almost always for the better.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to him and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3: 5-6
I sincerely pray that each of you are doing well. That you have not had a horrible, negative experience during this lock down time. I pray that you have, in some way, grown. Maybe you learned a new hobby or caught up with an old friend. Whatever you have experienced during these few weeks I hope you can pull positivity from it. We all have bad days but they don’t all have to be terrible.
P.s. I have been doing some online bible studies. If you would like to be included give me a shout out and I’ll send you the link.