Middle of the Night Epiphany

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. We have been trying to enjoy our summer by playing at the beach, at the park, on the farm and just being outside.

I’ve had a lot of inspiration to write but I just haven’t had the motivation to sit and type out the words in my head.

It’s been several months since our little man has started sleeping all night in his own bed. What a relief! He still occasionally wakes up but it’s a far cry from waking every hour and ending up in bed with me and my husband.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

Last night was different. Around 1:11am I hear a cry over the baby monitor. I look and little man is sitting up in his bed just screaming. Usually that means he needs a dry diaper so I drag my exhausted, pregnant belly self out of bed and go check on him. His room seems like it’s miles from our room in the middle of the night. As soon as he sees me he jumps out of bed and runs to mama and daddy’s room and climbs in bed. That never happens. I’m assuming he had a bad dream and was scared. I had no energy to protest this so I just climbed back in bed with him. He snuggled up to me and went to sleep. I had forgotten how my child turns into an octopus that does flip flops when he sleeps. My goodness I was kicked all night, had the blankets pulled from me and my head was pushed off the pillow. Needless to say I did not rest. He was up at 6:30-poking me in the eye saying “wake up mama”.

Mommin’ ain’t easy.

This whole situation reminded me, though, of Gods never ending love and grace. He never sleeps or rests because He’s watching over us. We have the ability to run to Him at whatever time we need to be wrapped in His loving arms and comforted. His love never fails. He never complains (like some mamas might do). We can talk to Him when we are scared and He will calm our fears. How amazing is His great love for us!

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 1 John 5:14

I’m a far cry from a perfect mama and some days the exhaustion gets the best of me. I try my best to show my child the love of Jesus and offer myself grace when little man has found the last button to push and I might have snapped and made him cry. He’s only two and I’m sure doesn’t understand everything but when I mess up I wrap him in my arms, apologize to him, and give him a kiss. That little bit of grace gets me (and him) through the day. When we mess up Jesus can wrap us in His arms and forgive us, all we need to do is ask.

The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, Romans 5:20

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