I’ve lost count of how many nights I’ve slept in my son’s bed with him. We are going on two weeks-at least. We are trying to get him out of our bed and staying the whole night in his bed. He starts out alone in his bed but eventually I end up in there with him because I’m too tired to go back and forth across the house. I know that this is a flawed system but that’s what’s happening right now.
I am utterly exhausted. —my mind just stopped…I literally can think of nothing else besides how exhausted I am.
Between little man being sick, having painful growth spurts, being sick again…and just wanting his mama…I sleep in 30 minute increments. This is in no way satisfying to my body.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” 1 Peter 5:10
I don’t cry much but this week I have had three emotional breakdowns. My husband does the best that he can with getting up in the middle of the night but sometimes our child is inconsolable and only wants his mama. (Throws hands in the air-what are ya gonna do?)
“For I,’ says the Lord, ‘will be a wall of fire all around her, and I will be the glory in her midst.’” Zechariah 2:5
I’ve been trying my best to not complain and pray through this storm but I can’t help but think that there are other mamas out there going through similar experiences thinking that they are alone. You, my sleep deprived friend, are not alone. I can relate to your struggle but more importantly Jesus hears your cries. He knows and he listens. This storm will pass. I know it will. Life with a baby literally comes in waves. Parenting is the perfect storm.
“When you pass through the waters I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2
So, put on another pot of coffee and offer yourself more grace than you ever have before because this will get better.